It’s been a whirlwind of a summer for me. I thought it was a transition from a season of waiting to a season doing. But since school started a month ago, the pace of this summer seems to have just continued; and I’ve realized that I was really ‘doing’ even though it felt like waiting.
You see, having been gone from school for a year, I had a wide variety of thoughts and emotions about what this next experience was going to be like. I felt excited, fearful, and nervous about many things, including routines strangely enough. I was really excited about getting to establish a strong day-to-day weekly routine. I was also nervous about not setting a good routine because I was afraid there was too much potential for failure without one.
Well, a month passed and I realize that there will not be a day-to-day routine. And that’s ok. During the last year of “waiting,” I learned that there is something healthy about not forcing a routine. Although I did do something routinely–I spent a lot of time seeking the Lord for answers. I was in prayer. I was in the Word. I was hungry to know my God better, to trust Him better. I did not always have a routine time that I did that, but I did get into a habit of doing it. I have realized that routine is something that should carry across all transitions. When I thought I was waiting, I was actually forming habits that were going to carry over. In times of waiting or doing, in joy or pain, I must keep looking to God’s testimony in my life.
The Psalms hold so much truth about God’s testimony:
“The Law of the LORD perfect, restoring the soul; the testimony of the Lord is sure, making wise the simple.”
“Your testimonies are fully confirmed; holiness befits Your house, O Lord, forevermore.”
2 – “How blessed are those who observe His testimonies, who seek Him with all their heart.”
24 – “Your testimonies also are my delight; they are my counselors.”
46 – “I will also speak of Your testimonies before kings and shall not be ashamed.”
95 – “The wicked wait for me to destroy me; I shall diligently consider Your testimonies.”
125 – “I am Your servant; give me understanding, that I may know your testimonies.”
144 – “Your testimonies are righteous forever; give me understanding that I may live.”
157 – “Many are my persecutors and my adversaries, yet I do not turn aside from Your testimonies.”
In the past year, the truths of these verses have become real and practical to me. In the midst of struggling with what’s next, I needed (and need) to remember who God is.
In the midst of the hectic summer, I needed to remember that God has been at work. As I start school, I need to remember that God had brought me here for this. These reminders all serve as pointers to His character.
The more we seek God’s character, the more He is able to reveal to us and build our trust in Him. The truth is: your testimony is not yours as much as it is His. God’s overall narrative for redeeming man from his fallen state starts with Christ and now encompasses all of our individual testimonies (Ephesians 2). His testimonies include the Word; they include how He’s worked throughout our lives.
This may all seem like a plug for doing your quiet time, but it’s so much more. Don’t shrink God to simply part of a routine. Make it a habit of spending time reminding yourself of who God is and what He’s done in your life. This can happen at any point; God isn’t limited to revealing Himself in your quiet time, though it is beneficial for our hearts to set aside specific time for Him.
So in the daily grind and giant transitions that make up life, take time to remind yourself of who God is, what He’s brought you through, what He has redeemed you from, and for. Wherever the next year takes you, you can trust that the God who did all of that is still at work no matter what happens.
Zach Lim is currently pursuing a masters degree in Business Analytics at the University of Tennessee, where he is seeking to walk with the Lord in discipleship and community. He interned with Precept in 2013, loves coffee (sometimes too much), sports, traveling, and is looking forward to the work God lays before him.