Am I REALLY saved or NOT?


2011 Summer Interns


I remember the summer of 2011 like it was yesterday. I was an intern at Precept Ministries International. It was literally one of the best things I have ever done with my life, and I’ll tell you why. Being an intern meant spending a lot of time studying the Bible. Then we got to practice leading lessons through the Covenant study. Then the real thing came: teaching Covenant for a week at Boot Camp. Never did I think that I would struggle with my salvation while I was at an internship, teaching people about the Covenant of God!

See, this wasn’t the first time I had struggled knowing if I was really saved or not. In fact, it was a pretty regular occurrence, starting when I was 7. I vividly remember writhing with anxiety in my bed many nights as I just cried and begged that God would save me. Well, this anxiety crept up again as I sat through two weeks of Boot Camp, listening to extremely bold messages about… you guessed it: being saved or not, having a real relationship with God.

God is a God a peace, not fear or anxiety. So I knew that this fear and anxiety was not a normal thing. Studying the Bible helped me stand firm against the enemy. I had to come to a place where I had to stop following every thought or feeling, and just believe and trust the Lord because I know His word is true. I’m not going to give the allusion that it was easy, because it wasn’t. For the rest of the internship, many tears were shed, many conversations were had, and one of the strongest battles of my life was fought.

The verse that comes to mind is Hebrews 8:10 “For this is the covenant that I will make with the house of Israel after those days, declares the Lord: I will put my laws into their minds, and write them on their hearts, and I will be their God, and they shall be my people”. This is God’s word, and He didn’t say “I might be their God, they might be my people if I feel like it”… no! He said I will be their God, and they shall be my people! Then I thought about Romans 10:9 “because, if you confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved” (ESV). One of the many things that I love about God is that He is faithful; He will do what He says He will do!

Studying the Word of God has taught me not only how to live for the Lord, but it continues to reassure me that nothing I do will cause me to lose my salvation. So much of life around us weighs on what we do. We might be in the “in” crowd, until we do something they don’t like. Then we’re out of the clique. Or we don’t get accepted into a group that we really want to because we’re different. Studying the Bible gives me security in a very insecure world, because I know that God doesn’t change. But I can guarantee you that I wouldn’t have known that unless I had studied God’s Word, and have seen the countless examples of His faithfulness throughout His Word.

I can promise you that I am far from perfect, and have so much more of His Word to study. At this point, I’m praying I can study it all before He comes again or calls me home! But I want to encourage you to study His Word too. Don’t just read it or glance at it; study it. Know what it says and how you can live it out!



Lindsey, born and raised in Michigan uprooted and moved to Chattanooga, TN in 2011. Lindsey first came to Transform Student Ministries as a student at our summer camp. She has served on staff at many of our events, interned in the summer of 2011 and is now on staff full time at Precept Ministries International. If I could describe Lindsey in one word, it would be Passionate. This girl lives full on, and it shows in all she says and does! 


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