You’re Not Crazy

You're Not Crazy

You’re Not Crazy

 

You’re the only one.

You’re crazy.

Look how happy those other people look—don’t you wish your life were that fun?

Here you are pursuing Christ and THIS is what happens to you?

Look at the world—there is so much going wrong, so much injustice and violence and sin.

In the midst of all this, your prayers and service aren’t making a difference or stopping the darkness from advancing.

It must be in vain.

Have you ever had a moment of weakness where one of these thoughts slipped into your mind, and you believed it for a second? A minute? A couple weeks? I have. I’ve recently found out that I’m not alone. There was a man by the name of Asaph. You might have heard of him. He wrote songs inspired by the Holy Spirit that you might have read in, say, the Bible. He was a worship leader before it was cool. So indie, right? And I bet he didn’t even wear skinny jeans (or skinny linen robes)!

In Psalm 73, he pours his heart out to the Lord and confesses what has been tearing him up inside:

Surely God is good to Israel, To those who are pure in heart! But as for me, my feet came close to stumbling, My steps had almost slipped. For I was envious of the arrogant as I saw the prosperity of the wicked. (vs. 1-3)

Sadly, in this world, the wicked still win. If you keep up with what is happening in the world (and you should), it is easy to be depressed by it all.

The Egyptian Government allowed what?

Our Supreme Court said that?!

That celebrity did what?!

Those kids at school got away with what?!!

And for all this, they seem to be successfully chucking along through life. Why are people rewarded for evil?

Behold, these are the wicked; and always at ease, they have increased in wealth. (vs. 12)

In light of all this, Asaph turns to his own plight and moans,

Surely in vain I have kept my heart pure and washed my hands in innocence; for I have been stricken all day long and chastened every morning. (vs. 13-14)

Being a child of God will make you fundamentally different in this world. Maybe you’re trusting God’s word as it relates to relationships and marriage, but it feels like all you’re getting in return is ridicule. Maybe you’re on the team but you’re tired of being “that guy” and you wonder how good it would feel to be “one of the guys” for a change. Or, maybe you’ve been trusting and seeking the Lord for some time now but circumstances have taken a turn for the worse and the story isn’t turning out the way you had hoped.

What can we do? Where can we turn to find clarity?

“When I pondered to understand this, it was troublesome in my sight until I came into the sanctuary of God…” (vs. 16-17)

 This reminds me of words from another song:

Turn your eyes upon Jesus
Look full in His wonderful face
And the things of earth will grow strangely dim
In the light of His glory and grace

In the sanctuary of His presence we find the Answer that goes so much deeper than answers, the Vision that goes so far beyond sight. We find Him. And we see that He is just, and will work justice soon and very soon. Maybe the thing that is vexing us is the tool He is using to loosen our grip on this place that isn’t our home.

“When my heart was embittered and I was pierced within, then I was senseless and ignorant… Nevertheless I am continually with You; You have taken hold of my right hand. With Your counsel You will guide me, and afterward receive me to glory.” (vs. 21-24)

Isn’t that beautiful about our God?! In our embittered and wounded state, He doesn’t leave or condemn us, but takes hold of our right hand and guides us to glory. Oh bitter and wounded soul, receive and soak in this truth! When this world lets us down, when we let ourselves down in our own striving, we can rejoice and say together with Asaph,

Whom have I in heaven but You? And besides You, I desire nothing on earth. My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever. But as for me, the nearness of God is my good; I have made the Lord GOD my refuge, that I may tell of all Your works. (vs. 25-26, 28)

You’re not crazy.

You’re not alone.

And when the Lord is your portion, nothing is in vain.

If you have been to any of our events in the past few years, you’ve most likely bumped in to Zach. You can find him either  leading worship, teaching a small group, or working as a Boot Camp counselor. We love working with Zach because of his heart for students! Fueled by a vision to see students using their God-given gifts  when he graduated high school he ventured out into starting a youth worship team. The rag tag group slowly learned to tune their own instruments and formed the band As Isaac.

www.transformstudent.org/blogs December Student Conference Summer Internship Contact Us

If you enjoyed this article, please consider sharing it!
Icon Icon Icon

Leave Your Response

* Name, Email, Comment are Required